Yes, this is me on a GREAT day! No makeup or hair done. Sweating and gross and loving it!
I am washing my Jeep by myself! Most people think “Big Deal. Another chore…” but they haven’t lived in my body.
I will live with my diseases for the rest of my life but I have learned gratitude in a way that others could never understand. I’ve mourned the losses of what I’ll never be able to do again, like competing in tennis or taking long hikes to explore new places but I’ve also been partially paralyzed and home bound for years on end! I’ve learned what real strength means!
Just last month I was in excruciating pain and bedridden for 10 days. I had to miss visits with family and friends. In those “flares”, fear tries to creep in and guilt for disappointing others. Shame because I have to inconvenience others too.
Then I remember how far I’ve come and focus on my Heavenly Father’s love for me. I remind myself that, at least in this point in my journey, the flares are temporary and that I WILL come out of it!
It’s also in those physical flares that I have to stop everything and it ends up being precious time, when my Father continues His work within my Spirit. I hear Him more clearly because it’s just Him and me.
And who knows? I might even be able to do more than I could before I entered that flare! I haven’t had the ability to wash my own vehicle in over a decade and today I’M DOING IT!
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